Today i have a feeling to write some... do you know me? No. nobody. I'm known as a cheerful girl. I always laugh and smile infront people even for small things. I am glad and showing happy expression in public, my family and friends. But no one knows what is hidden in my feelings. neither my family, my friends or anyone else. I couldnt translate in any language to share w them.. i couldnt hold this feeling without mention it. Im also a human being which have a feeling such angry, tired, sighed, happy, sad, crying, frust and everything. no one knew how i feel. Im not blaming my life, my luck, people around me or anything else. This was how my secondary life/in the middle of journey teens. I should be strong..
   There are some days I feel sad and want to cry. I do not have a reason why I feel like crying and yelled loudly. what I know is, I want to remove all the existing load and empty my heart of things that make me sad. I feel extremely ill. all mixed and feel the burden was too heavy. There are certain times where all the things showing up inside myself and i feel like crying fullest in sight of a person and can calm myself. I would be a liar if I said I was happy with all the things that happened. i wish i knew what the reason is. knewing there are more people more miserable than what I feel makes me disappointed because i couldnt stay strong like them. I laugh in public but what I feel inside, no one knows. NO ONE. i feel so bad. With this situation without no ones beside you is like *this is suck.this is crazy.this is bad*. its not good to tell the things. what im doing now is just expressing my feeling towards typing because if i share and story w them, they couldnt  understand what im talking about. and this post only can be understood by me. I could say, it is my life from different aspect, various types of.... can I live freely?

Typing makes me stop crying and feel that things gone slowly.. i should wipe my tears nw from wasting it flowing continously... sincerely me.. 16 march 2013..

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Helo gaiss hehe today i was free and tired hoo spending time here at kk with the craziest friends and cuzzy. today i just want sit infront laptop and sleep. hehe. seem theres some need to update in dis cuties blog xp well today i just want to update my post. Can u guess what the title about? yeah, im a die-hard fan of korean. ohmaigucci, im so dead haha. do you recognize BigBang(BB) facebook BB twitter ? of cos. tell me who din recognize them. free bite oh xD since their album BLUE was on air, im getting more and more interested with them. since there, im googling and youtube'ing about them and i hear all songs. gahaa, now i love them. Before this, iam madly in love with 2PM . nickhun, taecyon, wooyoung, junsu, jun ho, chansung, jaebeom. but but but, dont be sad dearr 2pm. Im still love you and always hihihi :3 do you know how ppl smiling singly and watching their love? haha without notice im smiling like crazy watching them. grrr i want to hug all of you. pleaseee hhaha xp Furthermore, i like all the korean stuff, their life, how they dress and so on. oiiii im getting crazyy la nii. imagine ok xD I like C.N BLUE bcus of their song. energetic enuf. not forget FT.ISLAND. their leader was so cutee LEE HONG KI their 4th album I WISH make me happy. girls group mmm i like miss A and f(x). my inspiration :3

Moreover, i likee to see them in any variety show such Running Man, Strong Heart, Star King and so on. Almost most of them are really mischievous. its show really them. their attitude. haha only this 3 variety show understand me when im sad, happy or whatever. they make me laugh and that's what makes me love them a lot. xoxo. Oya, recently i watch strong heart and im attracted with him JI SEONG. his smile was so sweeettt erghh (gigit jari) xp First i saw him in drama Protect The Boss. haha (Y) He was the friend of mine JANG GEUN SUK xp dalam show tu, there's a girl from what team if i dont mistake. forgot ed :3 she also a fan of ji seong. she got that opportunity to hug him and give present. she sing i love you song and im so jellyyy uhh (cry like baby) hahaha >.<

There's someone i knew, friend of same school. when i open my instagram, i saw her pict trip to KOREA. waaaaaa im jellyy lagii. ohmaiguccii, i hope someday i can meet all of them when im going there. AMIN :) if u dont mind, pray for me k? hehehexD

well, enough for today. haha. dont be surprise when reading my post yeah. its look like childishing and silly lil bit only hehehxp only orang yang sama kepala jek faham what i feel xD ok stop. see ya. xoxo :*

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It is wednesday. uhhhhhhhhhhh, "what happened to u? are u ok?" people asking me and worried enuf. Iam touched..

Let me tell u what the incident happen today. It was the same thing happened to me last year. guess what? ohhhh damnn. it was embarrassing and pain enough :((( Last year, i feel into a small drain. Drain by the side of the class. well, people said tak tengok jalan, itu sebablah jatuh. hmm, ye ke? last year im blaming the person who responsible for the drains. They took out the drain cover. Im familiar with the way where i always passing by. So i think its still save but without notice the drain cover was took out. I ran to the teacher who called me. Suddenly i fell into the drain and sprained my ankle :( all the student from upstairs watching me and silent while im laughing there and cry of pain. I din expect they care about me hahaha:$:$ when my friends carry me go upstairs and they go to my class and asking am i ok plus giving advice kunun. hehhex mintapujinyerr pun aku ne:$ XD it is much worse and i cant walk like usually........ bad memories last year.

And today it happened again? ohhhhhhhhh crap! what the @#$%. Im feeling not well and bad luck come. what a day. Now i fell into a large drain. deep drain. which is approximately used at town. I feel into a drain where infront of the men's dormitory. It was happened on school back time. Thankfully, there was not crowd people. But i think too many did saw me maybe? Astagaaaaaaaa, embarrass enough yet feeling pain. I also didnt knew how i feel. It was like dis, i walk through the drain and passing by a small bridge. its not bridge actually but i just named it bcus i din knew what it is. the bridge only fit for one foot so i walked alternating. Foot by foot. Usually i will be careful to pass through bcus im taking lesson from my bad experience last year. But today, i dont know why i ignore the drain yet it was large and big. everyone can see it. how i fell?! tmd. careless enough. While i pass through the drain, iam confident enuf my foot was step on a bridge but it was not. my right foot feel. luckily my whole body din fell. I still have my left foot to defend and both hand. even left ankle wound and my waist hit the corner drain. ohhhh pain pain painn D: now i realize, it was my fault. iam careless:((

I will take this as my lesson bcus of carelessness of me. haisss embarrass sangatt..... From today, iam allergic to the thing called A DRAIN. the same thing happened to me. omomomomomomoooooo............ i think only me din saw drain. I need a big spectacle. Iam shame to the people who did saw me tadii haha:( nevermind lah. sometimes, we also need a bad experience so we wont do it again hahaha. I have feel how fall into a small and large drain. So nextime, i wont pass through a drain againn and wont do the same mistake of careless.. haissssssssss, so badddd and saddd......... i think who were in the same school with me know where the drain are.

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Name: Shazlyn Ma (马夏霖)
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Today i have a feeling to write some... do you know me? No. nobody. I'm known as a cheerful girl. I always laugh and smile infront people even for small things. I am glad and showing happy expression in public, my family and friends. But no one knows what is hidden in my feelings. neither my family, my friends or anyone else. I couldnt translate in any language to share w them.. i couldnt hold this feeling without mention it. Im also a human being which have a feeling such angry, tired, sighed, happy, sad, crying, frust and everything. no one knew how i feel. Im not blaming my life, my luck, people around me or anything else. This was how my secondary life/in the middle of journey teens. I should be strong..
   There are some days I feel sad and want to cry. I do not have a reason why I feel like crying and yelled loudly. what I know is, I want to remove all the existing load and empty my heart of things that make me sad. I feel extremely ill. all mixed and feel the burden was too heavy. There are certain times where all the things showing up inside myself and i feel like crying fullest in sight of a person and can calm myself. I would be a liar if I said I was happy with all the things that happened. i wish i knew what the reason is. knewing there are more people more miserable than what I feel makes me disappointed because i couldnt stay strong like them. I laugh in public but what I feel inside, no one knows. NO ONE. i feel so bad. With this situation without no ones beside you is like *this is suck.this is crazy.this is bad*. its not good to tell the things. what im doing now is just expressing my feeling towards typing because if i share and story w them, they couldnt  understand what im talking about. and this post only can be understood by me. I could say, it is my life from different aspect, various types of.... can I live freely?

Typing makes me stop crying and feel that things gone slowly.. i should wipe my tears nw from wasting it flowing continously... sincerely me.. 16 march 2013..

Helo gaiss hehe today i was free and tired hoo spending time here at kk with the craziest friends and cuzzy. today i just want sit infront laptop and sleep. hehe. seem theres some need to update in dis cuties blog xp well today i just want to update my post. Can u guess what the title about? yeah, im a die-hard fan of korean. ohmaigucci, im so dead haha. do you recognize BigBang(BB) facebook BB twitter ? of cos. tell me who din recognize them. free bite oh xD since their album BLUE was on air, im getting more and more interested with them. since there, im googling and youtube'ing about them and i hear all songs. gahaa, now i love them. Before this, iam madly in love with 2PM . nickhun, taecyon, wooyoung, junsu, jun ho, chansung, jaebeom. but but but, dont be sad dearr 2pm. Im still love you and always hihihi :3 do you know how ppl smiling singly and watching their love? haha without notice im smiling like crazy watching them. grrr i want to hug all of you. pleaseee hhaha xp Furthermore, i like all the korean stuff, their life, how they dress and so on. oiiii im getting crazyy la nii. imagine ok xD I like C.N BLUE bcus of their song. energetic enuf. not forget FT.ISLAND. their leader was so cutee LEE HONG KI their 4th album I WISH make me happy. girls group mmm i like miss A and f(x). my inspiration :3

Moreover, i likee to see them in any variety show such Running Man, Strong Heart, Star King and so on. Almost most of them are really mischievous. its show really them. their attitude. haha only this 3 variety show understand me when im sad, happy or whatever. they make me laugh and that's what makes me love them a lot. xoxo. Oya, recently i watch strong heart and im attracted with him JI SEONG. his smile was so sweeettt erghh (gigit jari) xp First i saw him in drama Protect The Boss. haha (Y) He was the friend of mine JANG GEUN SUK xp dalam show tu, there's a girl from what team if i dont mistake. forgot ed :3 she also a fan of ji seong. she got that opportunity to hug him and give present. she sing i love you song and im so jellyyy uhh (cry like baby) hahaha >.<

There's someone i knew, friend of same school. when i open my instagram, i saw her pict trip to KOREA. waaaaaa im jellyy lagii. ohmaiguccii, i hope someday i can meet all of them when im going there. AMIN :) if u dont mind, pray for me k? hehehexD

well, enough for today. haha. dont be surprise when reading my post yeah. its look like childishing and silly lil bit only hehehxp only orang yang sama kepala jek faham what i feel xD ok stop. see ya. xoxo :* It is wednesday. uhhhhhhhhhhh, "what happened to u? are u ok?" people asking me and worried enuf. Iam touched..

Let me tell u what the incident happen today. It was the same thing happened to me last year. guess what? ohhhh damnn. it was embarrassing and pain enough :((( Last year, i feel into a small drain. Drain by the side of the class. well, people said tak tengok jalan, itu sebablah jatuh. hmm, ye ke? last year im blaming the person who responsible for the drains. They took out the drain cover. Im familiar with the way where i always passing by. So i think its still save but without notice the drain cover was took out. I ran to the teacher who called me. Suddenly i fell into the drain and sprained my ankle :( all the student from upstairs watching me and silent while im laughing there and cry of pain. I din expect they care about me hahaha:$:$ when my friends carry me go upstairs and they go to my class and asking am i ok plus giving advice kunun. hehhex mintapujinyerr pun aku ne:$ XD it is much worse and i cant walk like usually........ bad memories last year.

And today it happened again? ohhhhhhhhh crap! what the @#$%. Im feeling not well and bad luck come. what a day. Now i fell into a large drain. deep drain. which is approximately used at town. I feel into a drain where infront of the men's dormitory. It was happened on school back time. Thankfully, there was not crowd people. But i think too many did saw me maybe? Astagaaaaaaaa, embarrass enough yet feeling pain. I also didnt knew how i feel. It was like dis, i walk through the drain and passing by a small bridge. its not bridge actually but i just named it bcus i din knew what it is. the bridge only fit for one foot so i walked alternating. Foot by foot. Usually i will be careful to pass through bcus im taking lesson from my bad experience last year. But today, i dont know why i ignore the drain yet it was large and big. everyone can see it. how i fell?! tmd. careless enough. While i pass through the drain, iam confident enuf my foot was step on a bridge but it was not. my right foot feel. luckily my whole body din fell. I still have my left foot to defend and both hand. even left ankle wound and my waist hit the corner drain. ohhhh pain pain painn D: now i realize, it was my fault. iam careless:((

I will take this as my lesson bcus of carelessness of me. haisss embarrass sangatt..... From today, iam allergic to the thing called A DRAIN. the same thing happened to me. omomomomomomoooooo............ i think only me din saw drain. I need a big spectacle. Iam shame to the people who did saw me tadii haha:( nevermind lah. sometimes, we also need a bad experience so we wont do it again hahaha. I have feel how fall into a small and large drain. So nextime, i wont pass through a drain againn and wont do the same mistake of careless.. haissssssssss, so badddd and saddd......... i think who were in the same school with me know where the drain are.