Today i have a feeling to write some... do you know me? No. nobody. I'm known as a cheerful girl. I always laugh and smile infront people even for small things. I am glad and showing happy expression in public, my family and friends. But no one knows what is hidden in my feelings. neither my family, my friends or anyone else. I couldnt translate in any language to share w them.. i couldnt hold this feeling without mention it. Im also a human being which have a feeling such angry, tired, sighed, happy, sad, crying, frust and everything. no one knew how i feel. Im not blaming my life, my luck, people around me or anything else. This was how my secondary life/in the middle of journey teens. I should be strong..
   There are some days I feel sad and want to cry. I do not have a reason why I feel like crying and yelled loudly. what I know is, I want to remove all the existing load and empty my heart of things that make me sad. I feel extremely ill. all mixed and feel the burden was too heavy. There are certain times where all the things showing up inside myself and i feel like crying fullest in sight of a person and can calm myself. I would be a liar if I said I was happy with all the things that happened. i wish i knew what the reason is. knewing there are more people more miserable than what I feel makes me disappointed because i couldnt stay strong like them. I laugh in public but what I feel inside, no one knows. NO ONE. i feel so bad. With this situation without no ones beside you is like *this is suck.this is crazy.this is bad*. its not good to tell the things. what im doing now is just expressing my feeling towards typing because if i share and story w them, they couldnt  understand what im talking about. and this post only can be understood by me. I could say, it is my life from different aspect, various types of.... can I live freely?

Typing makes me stop crying and feel that things gone slowly.. i should wipe my tears nw from wasting it flowing continously... sincerely me.. 16 march 2013..

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Hello Earthlings! im human just like you~

Little About Lady Boss

Name: Shazlyn Ma (马夏霖)
Known as: Alyn' rawringXD or alyn
My Star: complicated
Age: 15 years young
State: Sabah
Country: Malaysia
Fav. Colours: Orange, white, and Soft Pink
Language: Chinese, English and Malay
Hobby: Blogging, Eating, Singing, Dating, Shopping, Taking pict, Laughing and so on=D
Fav Quotes: Aim to the moon, even if u fail, you will land among the star :)
Likes:

♥ Eating
♥ Blogging
♥ Chocolates
♥Cheese
♥ Ice Cream
♥ Cute Thingy
♥ Korean
♥ Soft pink+white
♥ Star hihi
♥ Natural Beauty

Dislikes

✖ Backstabber
✖ Liars
✖ Cockroach & lizard
✖ Hypocrite
✖ Haterz

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Today i have a feeling to write some... do you know me? No. nobody. I'm known as a cheerful girl. I always laugh and smile infront people even for small things. I am glad and showing happy expression in public, my family and friends. But no one knows what is hidden in my feelings. neither my family, my friends or anyone else. I couldnt translate in any language to share w them.. i couldnt hold this feeling without mention it. Im also a human being which have a feeling such angry, tired, sighed, happy, sad, crying, frust and everything. no one knew how i feel. Im not blaming my life, my luck, people around me or anything else. This was how my secondary life/in the middle of journey teens. I should be strong..
   There are some days I feel sad and want to cry. I do not have a reason why I feel like crying and yelled loudly. what I know is, I want to remove all the existing load and empty my heart of things that make me sad. I feel extremely ill. all mixed and feel the burden was too heavy. There are certain times where all the things showing up inside myself and i feel like crying fullest in sight of a person and can calm myself. I would be a liar if I said I was happy with all the things that happened. i wish i knew what the reason is. knewing there are more people more miserable than what I feel makes me disappointed because i couldnt stay strong like them. I laugh in public but what I feel inside, no one knows. NO ONE. i feel so bad. With this situation without no ones beside you is like *this is suck.this is crazy.this is bad*. its not good to tell the things. what im doing now is just expressing my feeling towards typing because if i share and story w them, they couldnt  understand what im talking about. and this post only can be understood by me. I could say, it is my life from different aspect, various types of.... can I live freely?

Typing makes me stop crying and feel that things gone slowly.. i should wipe my tears nw from wasting it flowing continously... sincerely me.. 16 march 2013..


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